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Thursday, June 12, 2008 ♔ 10:23 PM

Feeling betrayed and sad...

Am writing tis post cause im not feeling well...read tis post of my fren and was very sad as they went out together and did not ask me along..asking myself whether i am alrdy not a grp of them and that maybe i am only like a leech and sticking to them,maybe i am juz xtra,a temporary fren to her,onli when she need me than,she will use me..like when u are bleeding or injured and u need a plaster...i'm beginning to doubt our friendship built all over th years..even th fren i knoe lata r beginning to feel closer to me..am i juz a stranger to u?we promised to be th besties even though we r not in th same sec..but i feel that we r drifting apart further and further...whatever secrets,i always told u..but it seems to me that there are many more secrets that i do not knoe bout u.i onece told my sorrows to my another good fren,she told me not to b frens wib u anymore,but i felt that our friendship would last 4eva...i gave th both of us a chance...i did not even knoe that th 2 of u went out,till i read her* post...i knoe many of u reading tis will say "she go out,muz report to u izzit?her business u care ferr whad,she wan to go out with who , is her freedom" Yea,its not her duty to report to mie..but she didn't knoe that deep inside i am hurting..i put on a brave front everyday,smiling....i thot that tis is juz a small obstacle,we can overcome tis
together,but it juz doesnt seem th case...i still even wondered when we can meet up and hab a good times together like those old days...i told u my sorrows,my grumbles about th few days when i met up wib u when we hab to go ferr tuition...i introduced to u audi,u improved and even won mie,yes,i admit i was jealous and wanted to win u...but still treated u as fren..i noticed that u hab stopped playing audi for 1,2 weeks..and i chatted wib u on msn b4 i knew that u had alrdy stopped audi and started another new game..if i had neber chatted wib u ,i would never knoe...i tried to go along wib u,played and tried that new game,trying to enter into ur world..but it seems of no use...i haven't received a msg from u ferr so long,th onli time u would msg or chat with me was to ask whether i am going to tuition and that u didnt want to go,and that whr will we meet...i knoe that i am also selfish,going out wib juz my sec sch fren,and maybe ignoring u..but that isnt th case...i still cared about u..i bought gifts from bangkok and wondering whad u will tink of th gift..u didnt even told mie u were going to malaysia until i told u i was going to bangkok...maybe we aren't that close as i thot and that our friendship is not that strong as i imagined...i am sick and tired of all these..i juz wan a rest...maybe we shld juz stop all these and b th normal fren that see each other once in a week or awhile..

My heart is bleeding inside...

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